silently, I’ll think of you, talk about you, miss you, I’ll keep wondering why..  

drown myself with questions that’ll never be answered

i’ll stay this way til’ time allows me to…

can’t take it no more but i don’t know how to refuse the insanity that brings me to reality…

never asked for too much happiness for it’ll bounce as pain, pain awakens me

can’t hate you, i’ll hate myself for entertaining the “thought” -IN-

you’re now a part of me, though now broken.,

don’t blame me if i’ll keep thinking, missing, wondering about tons 0f “what ifs”

you pushed me in here.,

ALONE i find myself, back to nothing, mending? hanging? standing as if moving forward is easy.,

i’m too weak for tears, eyes ran out of water to flow., its my inner self that cries without anyone noticing *awww*

you caught me off guard, too late… im already trapped…

my head’s burning with paranoia, can’t pass a day without your thoughts?!!

my blind eyes sees you everywhere., look at the mess you’ve made.,

i’m a total paranoid insane pschotic depressed human

I feel so damn broken… THANKS.,

got nothing left to do, feel the pain, absorb the pain, love the pain, let pain do the damage til’ it hurts too much..

and please make me numb, stoned should i say.,

im floating, blow me faraway from you’re thoughts… im hypersober……

 

March 20th, 2009 by bluetams