a simple word that “some” people don’t seem to understand.

and what’s worse, “some” of those people are your friends whom you’ve know for quite a long time; you thought you knew, but then again, the feeling of being an outcast is slowly coming back.

wish i was alone way back then. if this could only be the outcome of that supposed to be “good friendship”.

they may say it is a joke as their defense, but they could have at least been able to know the difference between a joke and a “mean joke”, the difference between the feeling of being laughed to, and being humiliated purposely.

i wish that respect will always be the backbone of any relationship we could have.

i don’t demand for it. but at least, we could treat each other with it.

my life has never been happy as it was before. since i met most of you, life had been better for me. i just wish we could maintain that level of relationship with each other. no pretensions or grudges. just plain “fun” (in the sincerest sense of the word). i wish i could turn back the time then, when we were still getting to know each other, for then, we’re all equal (as i thought we’ll always be, and that’s the hardest past to comprehend, people change fast).

i wish we are still as good as it was before, always happy, despite the presence of many individual problems. and i just hope, my greatest fear will never be realized: losing you all.

this may be the last year for most of us to be together, but i wanted to savor every minute that we are together. for these moments will pass only once, we can repeat the experience but we can never have the feeling the same way as it was.

despite this, i always love you all. ALWAYS!

 

June 17th, 2008 by guru_fita2 im marvin... 21 years old... a pure blooded ILONGGO.. an education student... a person with so many idiosyncrasies... hahahaha!